Music has always been important to me - since a very young age. When I exercise, I clip my tiny IPod Shuffle to my shirt and find energy in the songs I've chosen. I've mentioned one of them before.
Rewind to yesterday. I was out for my walk and was on my last lap when a song began to play. A song that I've always loved. A song I would sing at the top of my lungs if no one could hear (and do sometimes when I'm alone since I can't carry a tune to save my life.) The song usually energizes me but yesterday, it made me weep. Right there, on the track. The lyrics, the singer, the angst in her voice - it brought emotions to the surface.
Save me.
Save me from the nothing I've become.
I can't stop thinking about those lyrics. What despair did the author of that song feel when they wrote them? Have I felt them? Do I know someone who does feel that despair? And even worse, do I not recognize that despair and am I not there to help. What brings a person to the conclusion that they are "nothing". And can they be saved? Maybe I wept for times of my own despair. Maybe I wept for some unknown person feeling that despair Maybe I wept for anyone that ever feels like they are nothing. Nothing. Such a lonely, powerful word.
